Last night my bf was explaining coining to me but every time he said coining it sounded like he was saying my name really weird and it’s all I could focus on
5 months ago // 3 notes
In follow up to my last post, I want to try and use this as my place to post poetry, journal entries, short stories. I have been reading again so much that it seems impossible not to write. I stumbled across some of my old writings and it is so interesting to see how well I portrayed some of my most important memories. I’d love to get back to that
If you also post any of your original writing like this please!
5 months ago // 2 notes
I haven’t had garlic hummus in probably six years. When I was 18, I was in the hospital for anorexia, and since I have never like meat or eggs much, the hospital would give me a half cup of garlic hummus for one sitting during meal time so it got old fast. It was also one of the only foods I was very comfortable eating (I put it in a wrap almost every night that summer with veggies from my moms garden). It put me in this spiral of really weird memories, when I had a wrap like that for lunch today (which was quite delicious). Like this one dinner that summer, the first time my mom didn’t hover, my brother threw away his unfinished pasta and my mom got really angry at me. My brother fessed up but my mom was still sooo upset, she got in her car and I followed her to the side garage door to ask where she was going; I didn’t understand at the time why she was so upset. She turned away and put the car in reverse without a word, left for the night. That following week in the bs family group meeting that I hated, where all the patients have family members come and listen to each other’s emberassing stories, my mom told that story of her leaving that night. How she had to leave, because she saw me in that doorway asking where she was going, and saw a little four year old me, and she felt like she was abandoning me but couldn’t remain strong anymore. Every time I think of that, it makes me cry, to this day.
5 months ago // 1 note
Distract Yourself
Some more alternatives to self harm:
- A Nintendo Gamecube/Wii emulator for PC
- A Gameboy Advance emulator for Android with instructions on setuphere
- French Toast Roll Ups recipe (with strawberries and nutella, though worth trying chocolate bits and melted chocolate maybe???)
- Bacon And Egg Toast Cups recipe
- An application that allows you to write with words!
- A list of pretty awesome songs
- One of Jack And Dean’s best YouTube videos
- Eggless Cookie Dough recipe
- Boggle The Owl
- BRAWNDO THE THIRST MUTILATOR
- Supernatural episodes (adblock is recommended)
- Torchwood episodes (adblock is recommended)
- Doctor Who episodes (adblock is recommended)
- Gravity Falls episodes (adblock is recommended)
Helpful websites:
- best learning website ever
- can’t remember the name of a song?
- check the trust level of any website
- consult this site before choosing a seat for your next flight
- find the name to the song
- is this website down for me or everyone?
- Less confusing view of the world time zones
- need a random number for a contest?
- never hit a dead end with a broken link
- self defense tips(x)
- survival tips
- upload anything from your iPhone etc. to your laptop
- wanna know how stuff works?
- watch movies/draw/everything??? with your online friends
How To:
- how to improve your self-esteem
- how to look busy at work/school
- how to love yourself
- how to pull an all nighted but do well on your exam
- how to study well
- how to survive College
- how to write an essay
Life Tips:
playlists // don’t be down / happy, happy, happy / cheer up!! / feeling down? / upbeat / for when you’re feeling sad.. / be happy! / songs to listen to when you are feeling sad. / anxiety/panic attacks / dashboard session /nostalgic. / it’s okay, not be okay. / anxiety’s lullaby / don’t be sad / songs that make you feel better / hey man, it’ll be okay. / note to self. / forget about it / baby don’t cut
cheering up // emergency compliment!! / paying for people’s groceries /random acts of kindness caught on film / free hugs experiment / tipping servers $200 / little acts of kindness / 27 videos that will make you happy /givesmehope / textpost blog!! / the everything post / repeat after me. / feel like you lost something? / you are not alone. / just listen to this / cute yahoo answers / nail art tuts / bad x-factor auditions / need a hug? / you can do anything
cool stuff // music thing / how to lucid dream!! / teach yourself guitar (wow)/ learn a new language / creepy websites / the color game / make a mind palace / explore the world / make a temporary tattoo! / musical sea creature // babies experiencing things / 7 day positive challenge / if you forgot how beautiful the world is / draw a nebula / watch documentaries /sugar cookies recipe / 100 things to do / anasomnia / kawaii emotions /100+ games / make your own font
depression // how to love yourself / alternatives to self harm / what am i feeling? / if you feel like crap / dealing with depression / let go of your past./ what is depression? / depression & cutting/things to do instead of cutting/ alternatives to self harm / the cure to sadness! (in under 3 minutes) /things to do when you’re sad / feel good 101: depression/ stop cutting, create instead
anxiety/stress // soundrown / build stuff with sand / rainymood / chill out /zen garden / managing stress / social anxiety tips / PTSD forums / anti-anxiety masterpost / a place to think / calming manatee / the dawn room /100,000 stars / types of anxiety disorders / anxiety attack tips / anti-anxiety foods / using a thought diary / panic attacks & anxiety /
eating disorders // bloating in recovery / why you must eat / what is ED recovery? / learning to love your body / how to eat a fear food / helping someone with an eating disorder / 281 reasons to recover /
asking for help // telling people how you’re feeling / how do i tell someone when im afraid? / how to ask for help / anxiety forums /
movies, documentaries, tv // action movies / disney movies / scary movies/ movies for angsty teens / my mad, fat diary / mean girls / blue is the warmest color / submarine / teen wolf / the vampire diaries / pretty little liars/ american horror story / bob’s burgers / the mindy project / ultimate teen movie masterpost / hannah montana / sherlock / american beauty
ART:
colour
how to draw…
references
downloads
adobe creative suite 2 free download
This is awesome✨
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